When I'm in the mood to really get an aggressive blast of music in my face, my go-to is most always Nine Inch Nails. I've got some Rage Against the Machine (pretty much everything they did back in the day, now that I think of it), and sometimes I'll listen to that. But it's always NIN when I'm feeling that need for in-my-face music.
It's interesting to me that this need for a loud sort of music comes when I'm feeling certain ways emotionally. For that reason, just any blast of metal won't do - I need a particular emotional tenor to the lyrics, and Trent always delivers what I need. A friend of mine says he can't listen to a lot of NIN at a stretch because his lyrics are so depressed in a way that doesn't allow for optimism. That probably encapsulates what I listen to that music for - a kind of anger tinged or even drenched in desperation. It's probably a direct manifestation of the depression I've dealt with for much of my life, and interestingly I find that now I'm looking for something more in this mood - a kind of desperation, yes, but with a heavy dose of hope. A sense that this too will pass when I work through it. It reminds me how much music is linked to my emotions, and how what I choose reflects that.
So I look for certain songs, and something like In This Twilight which is actually a song in the voice of someone living in the aftermath of a nuclear devastation of the earth before they die actually gives me a feeling of optimism. It's probably the way the lyrics are tender in a way - not your standard Trent emotion, you know? Sort of like the guy you dated who isn't really an emotional sort saying "let me get that for you, honey" - not incredibly romantic, but given his usual buttoned up nature, it's like Shakespeare's sonnets.
No, Trent doesn't bring me flowers ever, either. Damned boyfriend.
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